i think i deserve to have someone romantically

i can’t stop thinking about romance lately and it makes me feel strange

I HATE MY WAIST OH GOD

i never think about my body 

but now i am and oh god

all aboard insecurity express, passengers: me

I DON’T KNOW HOW TO APPROACH PEOPLE AND MEET THEM AUGH HOW

why do i feel so alone lately

i won’t let myself fade away

i’ve just had thoughts about it

i want to lay down and listen to albums

share some experiences

create memories

lonely

i think i might actually want romance with someone

my kind of luck is that of when you’re getting along with this french 24 year old and some drunk girl walks up to him and makes out with him in front of you

as in, that actually happened to me tonight

i found out belgian took a night off last week to go on a date :’(

i got kicked out of friday shifts

which means

the other hostess gets all three weekend days

i work two and a half shifts

which are super quiet

it’ll stay this way until a third hostess gets hired

also now what am i supposed to do friday nights